Star Wars at the Kennedy Center

This past Saturday evening, I put on jeans and a Star Wars t-shirt and a suit jacket. I sat in a box seat at the Kennedy center and watched Star Wars: A New Hope (Special Edition) while the orchestra played John Williams’ Academy Award winning score. It was amazing to see little kids, people from … [Read more…]

Step 9

Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others. This is Step 9 of the infamous 12 Steps of AA. Of all the Steps of AA, this is the one I was most afraid of. Or perhaps a better way to put, it is this step … [Read more…]

The Rozerem Experience

During my last visit with my shrink, I described how my continued battle with insomnia was effecting my life and well being more than ever before. I described to her the lack of energy, motivation, clear thought processes, etc. There was a point where I had described my thought processes about even though I had … [Read more…]

I have a theory

So there I was chairing my normal Wednesday meeting and with only one other person. This is something I have had to come to accept in the past few weeks. I figure it has to do with the summer time. In the past few weeks, I hang up the signs and do everything needed to … [Read more…]

This is ridiculous

Four to five hours of total sleep this weekend. By the time dawn rolls around, I feel completely sapped. My energy level is in the tank as is motivation level is in the tank and thus activities like exercise, yard work, and household chores seem impossible. If and when I do sleep, the nightmares that … [Read more…]

The loss of an inspiration

The news hit me hard last night. I would never say Anthony Bourdain was a hero of mine. I feel like I’m too old and perhaps a bit too cynical to have those. Instead, he was more like an inspiration and a source of hope. That you can come from a personal rock bottom and … [Read more…]

We all lie

We all lie. It’s a fact of human nature. We do it to protect ourselves. We do it to protect those who we love. The truth can be complicated and vicious – just a nature can be a cool uncaring evil bitch. The act of lying is a tell in itself. The saying goes that … [Read more…]

I need to make lists

And I made them at least a week before I left for Iceland. Two lists to be exact: Packing List and Things to do Before I Left. Nearly every day before my travel date, I added something to each list. But lists and line items to check off are only as infallible as the person … [Read more…]