I never thought I’d love again

If you think a man sincerely repents on what he done wrong, and he might get to go back to the time that was happiest for him – live there forever. Would that what heaven be like? Or, rather, I set myself up to never put myself in that position. After 2013, I made an … [Read more…]

The last letter

M, Here are your keys. I debated on whether or not to write a note. In the end, knowing I would probably never get the chance talk to you again, I wanted to admit this to you…. I wanted to thank you. When we started dating, I was in a mindset that I would never … [Read more…]

Coming to grips with this new reality

What does one do when there are four years of photos stored in your phone with a person whom doesn’t want you anymore? I almost didn’t go to tonight’s meeting. I felt like crap all day, my visit to my therapist today was… unproductive, and the drive home was brutal. Yet, I made it home, … [Read more…]

Eight months later….

Eight months is a long time… Since April, I had put this past week in October week as a pin mark in my own personal calendar. For me, this date was many things; an inspiration, a deadline, a goal, and a test. It was a personal deadline that had been arbitrarily set, at least in … [Read more…]

Bea scared me last night

In what was a typical weeknight following a work day, Bea and I were playing with the frisbee. This, in itself, is nothing unusual. My baby loves her frisbee time. Even the dog walker that I have hired to come over everyday does not actually ‘walk’ Bea but instead spend the 15 minutes in the … [Read more…]

Star Wars at the Kennedy Center

This past Saturday evening, I put on jeans and a Star Wars t-shirt and a suit jacket. I sat in a box seat at the Kennedy center and watched Star Wars: A New Hope (Special Edition) while the orchestra played John Williams’ Academy Award winning score. It was amazing to see little kids, people from … [Read more…]

Step 9

Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others. This is Step 9 of the infamous 12 Steps of AA. Of all the Steps of AA, this is the one I was most afraid of. Or perhaps a better way to put, it is this step … [Read more…]